Sunday, April 13, 2014

how we weekend

yesterday was dreamy.  

we slept in.
we bought delicious food (translation: we went grocery shopping).
we played tennis for two hours in the glorious sun.

we watched some office episodes while chowing down our lunch.
we wandered a book store and bought flowers (just because).

we made gf pizza (and it was soooo good).
and we bonfired it up with s'mores and good friends.
sidenote: gf grahams are just not the same

it was all around lovely and i have a feeling future saturdays are going to be just as wonderful (jeremy doesn't have to study for tests anymore, just boards.  he will focus on clinical work from here on out). this gorgeous weather is so refreshing. 

Thursday, April 10, 2014

to my brothers:

it's national sibling day!
so hooray for siblings, especially cool ones like YOU!

Christmas circa 1994: i am 6, riley is 2, sam is 4
you are my first friends and best buds.  i'm so grateful i got to grow up with you two goofs. we sure have a good time.  you two have always been there for me. thank you for the advice, the support, and the laughs. i can't wait for the fun adventures ahead.  i love you.  i miss you.

xoxo - you're favorite sister

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

a dirty oven door

and warm GF chocolate cookies long after the sun sets makes for a great night.

they taste just like brownies.  and if you eat them while they are warm they have that fudgy consistency to match. find the recipe here. it's a keeper!!

Sunday, April 6, 2014

the treats continue

today in between conference sessions we went on a little walk outside.  it's in the 50s today with sunshine out the wazoo!  there is hope; spring is here! so naturally we had to get out there.  i rolled around on my long board while jeremy chatted with some friends.  my skills are a little rusty which is expected since i haven't been on it for a good six months, but its starting to coming back.

we also made some crepes!

which were of course gluten-free and delicious.  my favorite combo is pictured above: nutella, chunky peanut butter, bananas, and strawberries.  i like to pack them full!!  which makes it a little difficult to wrap up, but i can deal.

it was our first time making them and the recipe was super easy! the first couple were pretty sad looking, but we improved immensely each time.  so really, if i can do it, you can do it. 

just whisk together:

1 egg
2/3 cup milk
1/3 cup cornstarch
2 teaspoons melted butter
pinch of salt

 and bingo! you have batter for 10(-ish) gluten free crepes.

i think these will become a conference tradition... because why not??  i love traditions.  well, enjoy the last session of conference! it's such a wonderful weekend!

Saturday, April 5, 2014


conference weekend calls for treats!  

we need something to help us stay awake and alert through the 8 wonderful hours of counsel from those called of God.  so there will be lots of treats this weekend.

 first up, these caramel chocolate drizzles:

 they are gluten free and delicious.  i got the recipe right off of the corn chex box.  you can find it here.

i love conference weekend! listen in. get your questions answered. feel God's love. make a change for the better.  3 sessions left!

Monday, March 31, 2014


week 6 gluten free

What have I learned these past 6 weeks?

I have learned that this is hard.  I have gotten glutened (meaning I accidentally ate gluten) almost every weekend since my diagnosis.  Gluten is hiding everywhere.  Sometimes I think this is easy, no big deal.  Other times I think, this is really hard, how am I going to survive?  There is still a lot for me to learn, but here are some of my thoughts about this journey. 

Eating out is really hard.  I ordered a "gluten-free" dish the other night and low and behold it had 2 glutenous items screaming at me.  Another time I ordered a gluten free bun and my burger came out with a regular bun.  Even when I order gluten free stuff, I just have to hope it doesn't get cross-contaminated.  One time I got gluten free bread for a sandwich but they didn't change their gloves or use a different cutting board. And... I got sick. I don't want to be high maintenance and send my food back and at the same time I don't want to eat something if I know it will make me sick.  It's hard to figure out if the restaurant really gets it. Have they checked all their ingredients for gluten or have they just eliminated the bread items and think it's good to go?  I am trying to make a list of gluten-free-friendly places (after 6 weeks I have three) because they can be hard to find, harder than I thought. Eating out is definitely not as much fun as it used to be. 

I'm learning that free food is also not as fun as it used to be.  I used to live for that stuff.  Cookies, pizza, donuts just showing up at work or church functions was the best. Now I'm starting to understand that free food usually contains gluten. I used to scoff at the fruit and veggie platters at parties. We all know we come for the baked goodies. Now I am always looking for the fruit.  It's safe.

I am figuring out what works, trying not to eat the same thing everyday, and trying to keep my grocery bill under control.  At least we will be eating out less.  Any tips are certainly welcome!

Thursday, March 27, 2014


i have had broccoli two nights in a row now.


even i am surprised. i had to force myself to eat it to earn points for a family competition and we were all out of green beans and spinach (for my spinach smoothies).  if i cover the broccoli in butter, salt, pepper, and shredded cheese and eat it with a bite of potato i can actually manage to get it down.  the first time was rough.  i almost gagged and i was making really interesting faces. it gets a little easier each time though. slow and steady i say.  maybe there really is hope for me.

what veggie should i work on next?

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

birthday girl!


you're a rockstar! and the best mom ever.
have a fun day.  i  love you!

Sunday, March 23, 2014

ripe bananas?

hey, us too!

so we made some banana bread even i could eat. 

and turns out
it's delicious!

gluten free baking can be a doozy and we certainly lucked out with finding the perfect recipe.  it's definitely a keeper.  bring on the ripe bananas.

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

I am

Round 2

I am learning what works.
I wonder if I will ever get there.
I hear whispers of uncertainty.
I see dreams coming true.
I want to fight for change.
I am learning what works.

I pretend to have it figured out.
I feel I'm getting closer.
I touch the walls to break them down.
I worry I'm not doing enough.
I cry for those that suffer.
I am learning what works.

I understand nothing is perfect.
I say perfection is not beauty.
I dream of a peaceful world.
I try to love everyone.
I hope for healing.  I pray for healing.
I am learning what works.

We wrote these poems in my group yesterday.  I wrote mine from my perspective as a clinician with my patients in mind and my struggle to help them break free from their Eating Disorders.  

Monday, March 17, 2014

our green

happy st. patrick's day! 

hope it's full of four leaf clovers and corned beef.

Sunday, March 16, 2014

breakheart: iced over

it was over 50 degrees yesterday so after a very lazy morning, we jumped in the car to head over to breakheart to spend some quality time in the sun.  well, apparently the snow and ice didn't get the news that spring was on it's way, because it was still a plenty.  it didn't phase us though.  we soaked up the sun as we sauntered around, chatted about life, and dreamed of more sun to come.

Saturday, March 15, 2014


krafting party 3

we ditched the knitting for KP3 to make some spring wreaths instead. so for this party we are stretching the acronym a bit and the k stands for krafting. we also planned the crafting to happen on Pi Day (3.14) so we could have some pie.  yes, we are geniuses!  jeremy made the gf pie (even the crust is from scratch) while we shopped for the supplies.  he's a champ!

cassandra's wreath is on the left and mine's on the right (surprise, surprise).  jessie escaped with her finished masterpiece before we busted the camera out. they all turned out so different and all so fun and beautiful.  i hope our gusto for spring makes it warm up around here.

Wednesday, March 12, 2014

candy is good for my soul

this morning i went to my lovely dietician's office. 

she had me record everything i ate for three days so she could see what vitamins i'm not getting, etc, etc.  well, she was not very pleased with my food choices.  i averaged one veggie and two fruits per day and lots and lots of candy. 

i love my candy.  and since there are so many things i can't have (sooooo many things seem to be glutenous these days), having a stash of candy that i can have gets me through the day.  milk duds, jelly bellies, and cadbury mini eggs make up my current stash. yum yum yum!

needless to say, she encouraged me to increase my fruits and veggies and cut back on the sugar.  on the way home, i stocked up on supplies for spinach smoothies.  that way i'm getting the nutrients and don't have to taste the greens.  i also bought some broccoli to try and cook up. so here we are again, trying to find veggies i can stand to eat.  luckily, i was only planning on seeing her a couple of times to get me on my feet with the celiac stuff and i don't have any future appointments.  i don't want continuous lectures on eating veggies.

fruit update:  i recently branched out to include apples in my realm of foods i eat... gala apples to be exact.  so my fruits are expanding like wildfire!  i will consider it my food victory for the month.

Sunday, March 9, 2014

sunny skiing

yesterday was gorgeous... blue skies with beautiful cloud patterns and sun sun sun! so naturally we spent the day outside, cross country skiing with some friends.  we were roasting out there under the sunny skies.  it is getting me all excited for spring.

when my brothers came to visit, they brought out my gear i used in high school.  (fun fact: i was on the high school cross country ski team when we lived in wyoming.)  i LOVED being on my skate skis this weekend.  i can go so much faster than classic skiing.  it seriously made me fall in love with the sport all over again.  next ski season is going to be amazing!